Two months...

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I am two months away from moving back to Pittsburgh and I am quite the swirl of emotions. I'm nervous, scared, excited, sad, etc etc etc.

We did some interviews for folks to take my position. One or two were quite good. The others I'm not so sure. I ended up working a 12 hour day with my regular work day, plus interviews, plus the supervised visit that I do on the side for extra money.

Not much has changed since I wrote last. I'm still working at the local Boys & Girls Club. I'm still single and having a love/hate relationship with that. I still hang out with the same people. I like my job most days. Sometimes I feel completely overwhelmed, but at the end of the day, it's a good job.

In 8 days, I'm going home for a week. I'm taking the kitties with me so they have time to adjust to the new house before I move home. They'll get to stay with Dad for six weeks as Mom is coming back home with me to keep me company and just to help me out. It'll be nice to have another person in the house. It can get pretty lonely here. I talk to the cats like some crazy person, but at least I'm not talking to myself...yet.

I find myself longing for a relationship or at least a date that doesn't suck. I've had a few dates here and there, but nothing has worked out. I'm both glad and sad about it. I like it because there's no reason to hold me here, like there has been in the past couple of years (cough...cough...Andrew...cough...cough...). It also makes me feel like I'm not attractive or something. I get that feeling like I'm going to be alone forever and that I'm never going to be the mom I want to be. It's scary. I know I shouldn't worry about it, but I'm 25 and there's no prospects.

I'm hoping the next 8 days go by fast. They should. I have to work a 12 hour day on Friday (maybe more since it's an event). Then on Saturday, I'm working the Father Daughter Dance at work. It should be cute. I get to dress up and schmooze. I'm good at that. Maybe I'll get some of those dads to donate $$.

I can't wait for my week off. I'm starting to burn out and I need to just sit back and not check my work email and all that stuff. Definitely not taking any calls or emails while I'm gone. The building won't fall down if I'm not there.

Wish me luck. These next couple of months are going to be crazy.